| Monday, December 21st, 2009 |
agegap
[ brokeninclgry ]
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9:06p |
Age ruined my happiness...
I met him at work, the moment we looked at each other something happen. He
completly changed how things were in my life. He gave me his number and we
quickly started seeing each other. Everything was perfect, you know that
feeling when you finally know that you met the one? Thats how I felt and he
even told me I was perfect for him, we were compatible in every possible
way...
I could feel it within my heart and soul. Now, as young as I am, I've been
through so much in my life that I am not your average 20 years old girl. I
always knew what I wanted out life, love.. and I found it in him... the
problem, the only problem that came up was our age difference. We knew how
old each other was but when I invited him for dinner at my place to meet one
close friend of mine, she asked him how old he was... it all went downhill
that night. It triggered some hidden fears. He is 27 years old. Now, we've
had long long conversations about how people are going to judge
us...especially him. He is so big on morals, he told me our age difference
will always bother him. I don't know what to do because age is something i
can't change and to see the "one" walk out of my life because of this is
unbearable. I need help, i don't know what kind of help...
we sat down, talked and cried in each others arms as we said goodbye, I could
feel his pain but his fear of judgemnt took over. I understand his point of
view but I don't want to let go. If it was someone else, some other fling I
would just move on but what we had was a once in a life time thing. He said
he wanted to let me go for my sake because if we stayed together he would
eventually break it off because the age difference.
About his feelings, he tried to hide it but he coudlnt, he had plans to move
out of the country before he met me and only a week on knowing me he actually
was considering giving away the opportunity of a lifetime. He would say,
everything is perfect.. just that one thing (age), just that one thing....
and at times he wasnt even sure if he was right to let me go because of this
and now he's running away, talking the easy way... He told me Im the "one"
he'll never have. Im lost and in pain. How can I show him? I told him all I
could possibly can. If only his friends would talk to him, If someone could
show him that our love is worth more than society's expectations. If only he
was willing to fight his fears for me... sometimes I feel like I wasnt worth
the fight.. but I know we were meant to be. I know and i completly understand his take on this but im conviced
going our separate ways is a huge mistake... we are so unhappy and I just dont know what to do... all i can do
is cry, every second of my life reminds me that we won't be, that we can't be and that is torture... i can feel
my heart twist and fade little by little... he took away my essence.. |
selfportraits
[ carface ]
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9:42p |
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selfportraits
[ pink_parakeets ]
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7:35p |
self portrait taken with phone..but i have a question if you don't mind letting me know which glasses do you like better? If you like both...the good news is that if i buy one pair i can get the other free. <3  thanks! |
selfportraits
[ biffah ]
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7:24p |
95/365
 Sometimes it feels nice to wake up just knowing. The knowledge that your day is going to be just that - a day, can sometimes be more comforting than the thought of dancing. Dancing shoes will come later in the week. Current Mood: geekyCurrent Music: David Garza - Discoball World |
selfportraits
[ hellogoodtay ]
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5:01p |
Five hours of photoshop, WAHHHH. Please tell me someone can recognize what I was going for!  |
selfportraits
[ ratpackfanatic ]
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7:57p |
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Current Mood:  uncomfortableCurrent Music: I Am Loved -- Frank Sinatra |
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[ k_dangerous ]
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7:50p |
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[ coneygoil ]
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6:40p |
233/365 - Bright Present
This would have been a better looking shot if the background would have been blacked out. But alas! photoshop doesn't like me and won't work. How much do I miss good ole' paint shop pro V.5! I did a lot of editing on PSP.  |
selfportraits
[ bruise ]
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2:09p |
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selfportraits
[ crookedfingers ]
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7:35a |
Jonny Ray
 Current Mood:  contemplativeCurrent Music: Okkervil River "Black Sheep Boy" |
selfportraits
[ varaerae ]
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12:50a |
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 I love dark green right now...perhaps because of Christmas trees. Current Mood:  tiredCurrent Music: Hark The Herold Angels Sing-Vince Geraldi |
| Sunday, December 20th, 2009 |
selfportraits
[ turntoscars ]
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11:18p |
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 so tonight i'll sit and pick apart your pictures, and over-analyze your words. but the truth is that i've never fallen so hard, it's taking everything in me. ( Read more ) |
| Monday, December 21st, 2009 |
selfportraits
[ sluttering ]
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1:05a |
one of those "take a picture of yourself as you are RIGHT NOW" deals. bloodshot eye and all.  |
| Sunday, December 20th, 2009 |
selfportraits
[ pinkpinkblink ]
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10:58p |
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selfportraits
[ followreasoning ]
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8:28p |
tired/bored  |
selfportraits
[ tiniest_dancer ]
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8:49p |
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selfportraits
[ ratpackfanatic ]
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8:59p |
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"I love to see a girl go out & grab the world by the lapels. Life's a bitch. You've got to go out & kick ass."
- Maya Angelou annoyedCurrent Music: I'm Beginning to See the Light -- Ella Fitzgerald |
selfportraits
[ longerthanwedo ]
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4:52p |
 For once this is the result of actual anxiety. I'm scared for her. |
selfportraits
[ biffah ]
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7:27p |
94/365
 As Eliot told us - there will be time to wonder, "Do I dare?" and "Do I dare?". For now, though, there will be time for fudge. Current Mood: busyCurrent Music: Tom Waits - World Keeps Turning |
selfportraits
[ installmentplan ]
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7:59p |
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selfportraits
[ thenshesaidno ]
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7:51p |
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selfportraits
[ carface ]
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6:17p |
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picturewhores
[ parallel_rose ]
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6:06p |
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| Monday, December 21st, 2009 |
selfportraits
[ bastamastowka ]
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1:47a |
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| Sunday, December 20th, 2009 |
selfportraits
[ roomforhonesty ]
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5:15p |
I underwent the task of compiling the best-of photos from Photobooth of the last year of my life, in an effort to chronicle my different looks. It's as close as I'm going to get to undergoing a 365 days project, I think. The time period between photos varies pretty significantly - sometimes I have a bunch from one period of time, and not many from another. But that in itself is reflective of what was going on in my life at the time - like there aren't any pictures from the beginning of the summer, because I was in New Zealand, but there are a lot at the end of the summer when I wasn't really doing much. Photo 1 (taken late last November, with very short hair):  Photo 2 (taken today, just after I woke up):  The rest of the set: Photobooth: A Year in Review |
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